Things I'm Worried About But Shouldn't Be

Do you ever find yourself dealing with that strange feeling that something is wrong? I have this needling itch in the back of my mind that something is just off today. Sounds like the perfect time to call out my cognitive distortions and put my coping skills to the test!

Worry: My stomach hurts; I probably ate something crappy and now my body is punishing me. Yuck. Hopefully this bloaty, upset stomach feeling will go away soon.

Worry: I'm looking for jobs. Well, this stinks.

Worry: I should really start planning that wedding, huh?

Worry: Am I the only one who doesn't have it together?

Worry: I don't feel like I'm living up to my potential. I sure as hell hope I don't die today, because I would be so utterly disappointed.

Worry: What if I never get to travel the world like I've always dreamed?

Worry: What if all this writing is going to waste? Am I dumb for wishing I could actually do this for life?

Worry: What if I never achieve any of my dreams and life goals?


Wow, those are a lot of worries and "what if" statements. Anyone else give in to "what if" statements? Yeah, I thought so. Represent!

But not really. Now that I've got those worries written down, I already feel a bit better. I took some Pepto-Bismol and got that tummy-ache out of the way. I know that I feed my body nutritious delicious yumminess and I know that I make sure to move it everyday. I'm searching for jobs and that is what I need to keep doing. When an opportunity presents itself and my heart feels right, I go for it. And if it falls through, then I know there is something else out there for me. We're going to visit the wedding venue on Saturday. And I know that I am definitely not the only one who doesn't have it together!

That takes care of the first few worries, but what about the last four? Those are biggies; and I'm not sure what the definitive answer is. Maybe there isn't one? I do know that one of my biggest fears is not living up to what I can truly be. I'm terrified of wasting the years away without learning, growing, loving, giving, sharing, experiencing, building...

So what do I do? Is it as easy as getting motivated and just doing it? I don't think so, but it's a good place to start. I think we all worry about these things (in varying degrees of urgency) and the best thing to do is just go for it. Not just blindly go about achieving your hopes and dreams without any planning or deliberation or whatnot; but at the same time we shouldn't just throw in the towel because it looks too difficult.

I'm a big believer in writing out what you want to do. For me, when I write it down, I feel more accountable to it, even if nobody sees the note I wrote but me. Having some kind of visualization of that goal, even if it is just a sentence or two, helps to push me forward. And that is part of why I blog. This post is titled 'Things I'm Worried About But Shouldn't Be' and it pertains to all of the worries I listed. At the end of the day, I'm gonna be a warrior, not a worrier.