I Can (Almost) See Clearly Now

When you have an eating disorder, you often see things much differently than non-eating disordered people. For example, I look at my body and see things that need to be "fixed." The average person looks at me and thinks I look absolutely fine. (On a side note: our bodies are not things that need to be "fixed." We are not problems to be solved.)

So, I still have poor body image and body dysmorphia. Yet, I am trying to embrace my new body; my healthy body. I think I realized a great indicator of progress last night. I was watching a movie and I saw that one of the actresses was playing a character who was very skinny. Really skinny. Granted, this character was supposed to look that way (she was in rehab for drugs.) So, it kind of made sense that the actress looked like that. My first reaction? "Ew, she is so skinny; she looks horrible! I'm glad I don't look like that."

Was that me thinking that? Normally I would admire that actress' body; I would want to look sickly and like I just came out of the depths of hell. What is happening to me? I am recovering. :)

This is what recovery with a cat looks like, in case you were wondering.