Small Victories

I know I've been progressing, and it's important for me to acknowledge my small victories.

Victory #1: I get excited and happy when I eat a cookie. Huge victory. I am hardly getting those ED thoughts of gaining a million pounds from some dessert. I eat something sweet almost daily, and it's great - and yummy.

Victory #2: My mood is improving. My boyfriend and I had a picnic over the weekend and ate our traditional picnic meal: cream cheese-and-mushroom sandwiches paired with some peanuts. Strange? Yes. Delicious? Double yes. This is a meal that would've sent me into a spiral of anxiety just a few months ago. It might be the sunnier, warmer weather along with my gains in recovery, but people are noticing my happier mood.

Victory #3: I am becoming a pro at recognizing ED thoughts. I am really starting to question: "Is this coming from God?" If it's telling me that I'm worthless, ugly, or a failure, then the answer is NO, and I am throwing those thoughts out the window. Focusing on my faith has been great. Bonus: I had my baptism on Sunday.

All in all, these are wonderful successes for my body, mind, and spirit. I am learning to be more patient with myself and quite honestly, I am finding much better things to do with my time than feel hopeless.

*Note: I wrote this blog post yesterday, and some updates are in order. These victories are great and I keep on keeping on. I had a little setback when I got really down about my body. I still have not body-checked, so that's good. However, a new medication I am taking is making me extremely nauseous and bloated. Complete horror for my recovery. My doctor told me it could take 2-3 months to get used to this medication, so I'm in this for the long haul. Yet, I've always known the road to recovery would be a  l o n g  one. :)